Maybe it shouldn't come as a surprise that I'm always making things worse....I know from experience that everything do turns into the lesser result.

Why do I think I hold the best when it comes to love...?


I hate myself for being this weak.

stupid

I am at the end of my lifeline.
I used to think that those who would even consider forfeiting their lives are worthless: why would do throw away everything, I thought, when there is so much in this world to give back?
I am at the end of knowing who I am. I used to think that everything wouldn't go against me if I just believed that I was a better person.
Things are going wrong right now, and I have no way of stopping what is to come. I feel like there isn't much left in me to even try and fix it, and that's the scariest part. I am giving up on more than just "things" I used to think are important, I'm giving up on what I told myself over and over again: I won't be like those who put me down and made my life miserable.
I ended up making things worse and became a cretin lower than the things i've been avoiding.

All i had left....all I wanted.....i let go because I am not perfect. I don't know what i'm going to do now but....


I know it's not going to be okay.

I know i'm going to do something stupid.....

IDK!

Sometimes it's hard to figure out who's older.

I realize that she didn't have much growing up, and I don't mean just the materialistic things. I'm talking about how she grew up not knowing the things most people should already know growing up, and it kills me to think that she grew up in that kind of rearing.

I know it's my place to teach her these things, but my girlfriend is too stubborn to be taught and she feels like I'm always antagonizing her or trying to patronize her but the truth is, if I'm teaching you it's only because I want what's best.
In an argument, it's hard to let her know that what she says doesn't make sense. . . but she insists that it does in her world! She can't say that!
Don't get me wrong, if it was something else--like if it was something that didn't include common sense and just about girlfriend/boyfriend trouble, then I get it-but no, she gets these ideas from someplace else and it messes with her mind!

Slowly its getting to me as well, and it's frustrating. I know it's unfair if I start blaming other people, but a lot of times.......i don't know.


When she's wrong, I can't tell her that because that would make me wrong.

What it Means

I don't know if many people know, but social networking is an example of how people are supposed to express and connect. That said, let's talk about people using it in a different manner.

My girlfriend decides to get angry at me for social networking, and she decides to come up with the conclusion that it's because i'm friends with her so she removes me.
"Did she listen to what you had to say first?"
Well, no she didn't but coming this far into it I think I'm not supposed to. It's becoming normative to let her decide for me and whatever she thinks up, regardless of it being true or not, that becomes the person I am.
"She removed you as a friend? Why?"
I haven't got the slightest clue. It couldn't be because I said "I don't like facebook", but then again she said "hm, you liked it before I was your friend" lol once again, she comes up with her own conclusion.
"Social networking is a place where you keep in contact with your friends. Does this mean she doesn't like it when you talk to people?"
That's what I thought, but then she has her own friends and page. There are things that bother me, but there is no point in pointing it out as she's just going to come up with an excuse. Sometimes I wonder: what's more better, a liar or a cheater?
"What are you going to do now?"
lol yeah.........good question.