Maybe it shouldn't come as a surprise that I'm always making things worse....I know from experience that everything do turns into the lesser result.

Why do I think I hold the best when it comes to love...?


I hate myself for being this weak.

stupid

I am at the end of my lifeline.
I used to think that those who would even consider forfeiting their lives are worthless: why would do throw away everything, I thought, when there is so much in this world to give back?
I am at the end of knowing who I am. I used to think that everything wouldn't go against me if I just believed that I was a better person.
Things are going wrong right now, and I have no way of stopping what is to come. I feel like there isn't much left in me to even try and fix it, and that's the scariest part. I am giving up on more than just "things" I used to think are important, I'm giving up on what I told myself over and over again: I won't be like those who put me down and made my life miserable.
I ended up making things worse and became a cretin lower than the things i've been avoiding.

All i had left....all I wanted.....i let go because I am not perfect. I don't know what i'm going to do now but....


I know it's not going to be okay.

I know i'm going to do something stupid.....